I love you. You know that. I trust you and I think that you are a very, brutally, honest person. You have a strength in you on the outside that is very tough and I believe with all my heart one day you’ll realize that you have that strength on the inside too. I’m stuck here. I am a very adaptive person but in ALL of the wrong ways. I can’t explain to you the pit that I’ve let myself fall into. It’s a confusing and not always bad one, but it is the wrong place for me and you must know that. In a way there is no use in me trying to explain. Not even you will probably ever fully understand why I am the way I am or why I do the things I do. I don’t even understand. I do what I feel. When I am unhappy, I realize there is something I must change, and when all else fails sometimes what I have to do is drastic. But I’m drowning here. I’m drowning and I’ve found a life raft. I’m drowning and I’ve found something that will keep me afloat and allow me to move in the right direction. Please accept this. I know it will be hard but please do, I would hate to lose you.

YOU don’t know what’s best for me. HELLO, we are all the same age and we have the same amount of wisdom that anyone else our age does. None of us have seen the future and I HATE that you have NO faith in me. Yes, I understand that you think you “know” me, but honestly, how much time have you spent with me since I’ve met you actually concerned with my needs? I KNOW what I am doing. I don’t need your lectures or your bullshit, especially when I know you only care about the trouble you’re going to have replacing me.

Fuck you.

I will fight my corner, tonight maybe I’ll call ya when my blood turns to alcohol

Thank god even crazy dreams come true